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The trials and tribulations of an introvert…..

All these people, with people, milling around, rushing, no peace for them, just a perpetual treadmill of life. Not smiling seemingly coping with life. I just smiled at one stressed looking mother who offered half a smile back and as soon as I partially looked away, the smile dropped and the stress preceded to press back into her face.

I’m sat at the Circle a beautiful church that has been converted into a haven for people like me. The ones needing the presence of people for a short time so that they still feel connected with the living.

This place is spiritual in it’s presence, there’s echos of past lives here. The energy is interesting.

My names Janie B a solo lady through no fault of my own. I enjoy watching and listening, some people think it’s an art but for us introverts it’s a necessary evil , so we can calm ourselves, gather our thoughts and build the courage to be in an environment out of our comfort zone.

The Circle. Bacup

For me today it’s The Circle, I do like it here it’s noisy today but in.good way. Mindles is sat watching the children play, not quite knowing what to make of them. There’s a bouncy castle here which the children are making full use of. Running round and round bouncing and squealing with joy. The air is full of chattering and kids yelling, chairs be dragged across the cold floor and the sound of the lights shimmering.

Freddie the owner just popped over to say hello to Mindles,. He’s looking rather busy with his tool kit swung over his shoulder.

This place is thriving so warm and inviting. Last time I was here it was Christmas time and the market was on. I was sad then and sad now, but what can you do.

The wave of loneliness is casting it’s net around me yet again. I came out to escape that feeling. I’m sure it will pass.

This story is about the trials and tribulations of an introvert.

To be continued…….

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Bereavement… Article written by Jane Britton

I was asked recently to write an article on grief for Lifestyle magazine.

I lost my wonderful husband Paul to stage 4 bowel cancer in March 2022. He is my soulmate, my best friend and the world was definitely a better place with him in it.

Grief especially complicated grief is hard and you can experience a wave of emotions on a daily basis.By writing this article I wanted to raise awareness around bereavement and for you all to know that it’s ok for you not to be ok.

It’s ok for you to express your emotions. You’ll have bad days, slightly better days, then before you know it you’re back on that emotional rollercoaster again. It’s all absolutely normal.

The article is online here. Page 14, via the Cyprus edition.

UK edition online soon.

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Finalist… Positive Awards

Hey all, hope you had some time with your loved ones over the festive season.

I’m delighted to let you all know that I’ve just got into the final of The Positive Awards. How marvellous is this, I’m not sure who nominated me but thankyou.



Vote Janie Britton

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When they say smile in passing when your out shopping for your one person meal, they don’t realise why you’re sad, why its yet another bad day. they don’t know that by saying smile that they’ve sunk a dagger into you’re heart because you’re now reminded again how alone you are. You feel like swearing at them, but that’s not nice, it’s not their fault it’s not lady like. They don’t know what you’re going through, should you share, probably not you’ll just embarrass and upset them so what’s the point. Pain builds in your chest from the anxiety and it sits on your chest like a heavy weight. Every social outgoing is hard work and so tiring. It’s been six very very long months now since my sweetheart passed and it’s getting harder everyday. I’ll turn this into a song one day and like therapy I’ll sing the pain away. But not tonight, tonight I’ll wallow in self pity and start the week anew again tomorrow.

Welcome to Grief!

When somebody dies whos super close to you , in my case my husband Paul, you have a lot of time to think and reflect on what if, what happens next, what happens to me, what am I going to do, why am I still here?. 

My lovely hubby died of stage 4 cancer that originated in the bowel and then spread like a weed all over his body 05/03/2022 . It went into his bones, head, lung, right eye and bowel before finally doing its worse. He also had multiple myeloma cancer and a chronic pain condition called CRPS. My darling cheeky Paul was ill for years, he never complained, he was kind, patient and such a generous and thoughtful person. He fought like a “superman” and was incredibly brave even when the pain had him crying out with the horror as the pain was so intense. All the consultants loved him because he was so cheery, positive and smiley, I loved him because he was my cheeky chappie who made me smile and laugh at his really bad jokes.

Paul was even born with a cancerous lump on his right shoulder. 

So you see the world had it in for him from an early stage.

 He survived numerous cancer treatments, chemo, and operations for almost six whole years. 

I loved and adored Paul our whole married life and still do, he was my soulmate. I cared for him and loved him so much. People commented often, how did I manage working full time and also look after a poorly husband plus growing veggies for him and doing the music, writing and photography. Well its simple I loved him and we where married so of course I’d look after him – who wouldn’t right?. We/He thought he was invincible, I called him my super man and there is even a Skyeladder song about him.

You see, he survived three cancer operations and a Stem cell transplant, he did amazingly and was/is a super strong man.  

But now he’s died and I have this massive void that just keeps getting bigger and bigger. 

I have a hollowness in my tummy, I am angry ( still, I don’t know why). I have tightness above my breast on my right and just feel a complete and utter emptiness which to be honest gets worse with every single hour of every day.  I cant sleep , I’m cold all of the time, I feel anxious and you’d think I should be able to sleep as I’m so exhausted.

 I cry for no reason, I’m sure Mindles the dog is getting stressed. ( I’m crying now – go figure) .

Plus I cant seem to do anything apart from mechanical things like clean the house, feed the pup and do the washing. I’ve been staring at peeling paint for months thinking oh I should really sort that and repaint, but I haven’t. 

Pauls everywhere, from his rings on my fingers , the pictures on the wall , to the clothes in the wardrobe and drawers and the meat ball casserole in the freezer that was waiting for him to come out of hospital so he could enjoy as it was his favourite.

I organised the funeral for Paul on my own. You see when you are caring for someone so poorly you don’t have many friends and sometimes those who know that its cancer/you’re dying get a bit afraid and distance themselves. To be honest , I was glad I was on my own, all I did was take a few deep breaths and walked in to the funeral parlour and talked about what Paul wanted or that I hope he wanted. 

They said after the funeral ( people, friends, family) that it was a fitting ceremony and that I did him proud and I even stood up to talk about personal stuff which I can tell you now is not me. I even played one of our songs, it was written about him

I was even told by a friend, don’t worry you’re still young , you’ll meet somebody else. ( Yep thanks for that I’ve just seen my husband die and you’re already trying to fix me up, unbelievable! But my sister explained they probably don’t know what to say for the best. )

I’m trying to get out more, see people, do my music and other hobbies again.  But when I take a picture  or grow something or stand up on my own for the first time playing the guitar and singing , I think well Pauls not going to see this ,so what’s the point.?  I mean what is the point really?

I close the curtains when it all gets too much, I’ve cancelled invites, I’ve not answered the door or phone , because to be honest I’m having a bad day. Is that okay?

Easter came and went, I had covid who knew that you can get covid by not seeing anybody at all  ( even though I had all the pointless injections) .  I spent that long Easter weekend with me feeling sad , having a sense of dread and being very lonely in bed ( no chocolate egg as we used to buy each other one.)  Nobody to make me a cup of tea.  Paul before he became really ill made the best cups of tea he really did.  I think I ate mostly toast that weekend. 

I’m lonely and very sad all the time, I mean who would want to be around a lonely sad grieving widow hey?

I’m struggling to get myself organised re food, I’ve lost over a stone in weight.  When I do cook, it  tastes bland even though I’ve cooked it the same way.  The world just isn’t the same without my cheeky Paul in it. I think a lot about when I’ll see Paul next, I miss him so much ( Doc says thats the grief talking)

Paul and I had booked a week in Anglesey back in January for the Jubilee week.  I cancelled last minute ( sorry) , as I just couldn’t face driving somewhere without Paul.  I just feel that I don’t want to do or experience anything without my Paul.  Dying is shit ( well thats what my doctor said), he even said that when Paul was first diagnosed with Cancer ( he said its shit news) , go figure. !

I talk to him when I’m in bed you know, Paul that is , people probably think I’m crackers. But I still have his pillows on the bed next to me.  Its surprising how cold  the bed is when theres only one of you in it.   In fact I feel cold most days.  Paul was basically a big cuddly heating blanket for me that I could cuddle up to and feel safe and warm.    Last night I was so cold in bed that I got out put socks on and my cuddly dressing gown. 

I think about his birthday 09/11 and mine 24/12  our wedding anniversary 05/12 , Christmas , Valentines day, Easter, Mothers and fathers day- its just not going to be the same again.  Why couldn’t they have found a cure for Cancer , I mean how much more money needs throwing at the research, why couldn’t they save him?

Sometimes I feel I’m going bonkers.  Luckily for me I have a brilliant sister  and brother in law who have invited me up for some weekends at her house and basically looked after me.  Making me meals, chatting and being very sweet with me and understanding that I’m just sad and I think I’ll be like this for a long time as I can’t currently see a way out.  Plus I have a great brother who always knows what to say to make me feel a smidge better.

I got up this morning, had porridge, walked the pup, had a shower  ( cried in the shower) got dressed and logged on work for the first time in 3 plus months.  Now sat here looking at the clock its 13:23, lunch time, I need to think about eating lunch but instead I’m writing this and yes yet again I’m crying.

Life goes on, things change even though I feel I am standing still. 

Thats the grief they tell me, will it get better? I just don’t know, I’m so sad everyday that I don’t know what to do for the best. Take it step by step they tell me, but to be honest I wake up feeing sad, I go to bed feeling sad, life is a challenge currently.

I guess I just keep on treading water and we’ll see what happens!. 

Speak soon. 

Janie B x

World Mental Health Day

World Mental Health Day – I’ve been on hols from work for two weeks, fully intending to go to my favorite place Skye for a break. However during that time, my lovely Suzie pup has died, we’ve been flooded and it looks like we’re all going to be on lock down again. If that lots not a challenge to your mental health I don’t know what is!.
So how do you handle the above? , well I’ve cried ( yes its normal) , I’ve distracted myself and decorated the bedroom ( yes its mind numbing and my knees are bruised from kneeling down ) ,I’ve slept most mornings to 9:00am :0) , I’ve planted five raspberry bushes, harvested the tomatoes, made chutney., baked scones and apple cake Ooh and I’ve written two songs for my band.
I must admit, its been a very hard two weeks mentally and I am thankyou for my friends and family, who understand and get me.
My advice to you all is, if life is giving you a good old kick, step back, take a look around you, talk to your friends and family , I know sometimes its hard to ask for help but sometimes you just need to and you’ll feel better for doing so. Do what makes you feel happy and remember the most important person is you!.
#selfcare #wellness #mentalhealth #reevaluate #itsyourlife


I was talking to an old friend a few days ago and we got to talking about work/life balance and I said that I treat my life as if its full of mini projects, mini challenges.
I’ve found as I’ve grown with my role and matured in age that I am able to better cope with stress. If you look at what is happening in the world today, there’ s definitely been a few of those challenges recently. I take each day at a time, yes I have my long term goals and want to be very successful in what I do, but sometimes you just need to slow your pace down a bit and truly understand whats’ important to you. A great actor once said “life is a box of chocolates”, it’s a great metaphor that basically says you don’t know what life is going to throw at you, its not really something that you can control. For instance did we all know we’d be sat in our houses for several months or that we’d be walking around in masks being controlled by a virus, nope I certainly didn’t. Did you?
So I say take your life step day by day, do things you love to do, never second guess your choices. Take care of your family and work as hard as you can and remember life balance is everything. Life truly is for the living and you only get one chance at it as Brad Mondo says “Don’t forget to Live your second Life”

Hi all – Skyeladder music.

I’m a curvy lady in her fiftys enjoying life, love music, singing, playing my keyboard and guitar and love dogs, photography, baking and gardening.

I have lots of great ideas but have to hold myself back sometimes as I get quite inpatient to get things done lol . I’ve got a few projects on the go and will tell you all about them as I get back to blogging. So firstly heres a bit about my music Skyeladder.

We’re currently working on, writing new songs and also thinking of great merchandise ideas that we know you will love. 

We plan to do lots of facebook lives with some great give aways.  

Our plans include, engaging a radio plugger & PR company and we are planning a promotional trip to the States next year , to Nashville, LA and Austin Texas.

Any donations would be gladly received  via – thankyou. xxxx