The Curve Fashion Festival – 17th Nov – be there or be square

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Hey Janie here – I am so excited that the The Curve Fashion Festival is coming up on the 17th of November.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Its an amazing event that debuted in 2015 , with ladies and gentlemen from all over the world and presents a great chance to network with people from the curvy community.

Celebrity guests and influencers have included Tess Holliday, Nicolette Mason, Charlotte Crosby, Hayley Hasselhoff, Grace Victory, Felicity Hayward, Holly Hagan, Gemma Collins, Bishamber Das and many more!

 

 

 

 

New for 2018 is the Beauty Hub. With more beauty brands at the festival than ever before the curve event decided to host a beauty area. So you’ll be able to shop, pamper and treat yourself!

There’s also an opportunity to meet with your favorite celebrity via the Meet & Greet Stand for that perfect selfie opportunity. I so want to meet Michelle Ellman an award winning coach and body positive activist who has a new book out “Am I Ugly” :0)

 

 

I personally cant wait to see what the fashion lines are showing on the catwalks and lets not forget the most important thing, shopping via the Market Hall lol.  There are so many retailers attending the event, one of which is Debenhams who are in their second year attending the event.  If you remember they where at the festival promoting their beauty range last year on the How to stage.  They have 15% off beauty and perfume currently, check out the offer here – https://www.debenhams.com/beauty

So excited to tell you all that  this year they will be  hosting bra fittings, and they have a designer on the How To stage and you’ll see their collections on the catwalk as well amazing hey, so make sure you catch them.

 

I don’t know about you guys,  but I totally adore Debenhams they have such a versatile range.

Check this out – for a preview of what they offer , take a look at some great plus sized brands/fashion on their site – here.  https://www.debenhams.com/women/plus-size

Sounds perfect yes so get over to the site, treat yourself to some tickets  ( LINK HERE) and I’ll see you there x.

 

Autumn Beauty – Hair – Rootsmudge

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Just had my hair done at a place called Freddys Hair Salon in Rawtenstall Rossendale.  Absolutely love the time and effort that Matt my stylist took to ensuring it looked great.

Heres what he used.

‘Broke the base’ using #blondeme with 6% in a #freehand #blalyage technique then covered the regrowth using Schwarzkopf Professional #colour10 6/00 6%. The remaining hair was coloured using #igoravibrance 8/4 and 5/1 to create a cool mocha tone 👌🏻👌🏻 #autumnready
#hairtransformation #autumnhair #freehandhighlights #rootsmudge #blend #linghair #brunettehair #longhair #smoothhair #freddies #freddiesforhair #rawtenstall #rossendale #manchester #ribblevalley Freddies Hair-Salon

Love it thankyou Matt xx

Hubbys home – Multiple Myeloma – Stem Cell Transplant

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Hubby came home from hospital just under a couple of weeks ago thank goodness :0 ). As you know hes got Multiple Myeloma which is a cancer of the plasma cells. ( also known as plasma cell myeloma, is a cancer of plasma cells, a type of white blood cell normally responsible for producing antibodies.)

I must admit its very hard, and life is a struggle.  My hubbys just had a major procedure a Stem cell transplant due to his Multiple Myeloma ( Cancer).  After the transplant he managed to contract  mucositis which effects the mouth so no voice, painful to swallow and was hardly able to eat anything.  He also had septis and an infection in his pic line so they have removed it and hes on antibiotics. Hes had lots of plasma and blood cells pumped into him. When he was in hospital I was driving 1 hour and 20 mins to get to see him each trip so that was 2.5 hours at least travel to the hospital each day.

Plus also working full time, maintaining the house and garden and looking after the pup.  Just seeing how poorly hubby was and trying to remain upbeat and smiley for him was very difficult. The drive home from hospital was my quiet reflecting time and that time apart from driving was mostly spent crying about us both and basically feeling sad re our situation and being a complete softy.

Hes out of hospital now but its still difficult as we have the weekly hospital trips initially it was every couple of days. I’m still working full time, doing the house/garden and of course looking after my dear hubby. But I don’t begrudge the situation I’m more thankful to be honest as hes still here with me,

I still have my love my soulmate and I consider myself and us very lucky.

 

Hubby Pauls , recovering well though and I am seeing improvements each day.  Hes loosing his hair bless him hence the funky Buff headwear, but I really hope that soon we’ll know if the SCT worked and if he is in remission or not. 

We got out for a spot of lunch yesterday although it totally exhausted him and he had to go back to bed, at least we got out.  Sometimes a chance of scene is as good as a rest they say and yes I think they are right.  So onwards and upwards for us just moi, my gorgeous man and our super beautiful and loyal pup Suzie Q…….

 

Unicorns rule……

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Unicorns rule…. great tee from Next.  This tee looks great with everything and is the perfect addition to the Spring/Summer wardrobe.  Unicorns are magical , and you in turn can look magical by wearing this great tee.  Pair it with a cute pair of shorts for the beach or just chill and wear a pair of relaxed jeans.  What ever you wear it with you’ll look great even if its just to chill around the house with a pair of slouch pants.  What ever you choose Unicorns rule……..

 

Unicorns rule……

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#psbloggers #plussized Freddies Hair-Salon #hairbyfreddies #skyeladderlive SkyeLadder #notbadforanoldbirdhey   #notbadforfifty

Its Harvest Time – Multiple Myeloma – Stem Cell Transplant

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Wish Paul luck everybody he’s currently having his stem cells harvested at Manchester Royal over the next two days. Hes been sick and dizzy today, but he seems a little better now that hes been given an anti sickness drug.

Well Day 1,& Day 2 done then driving home day 2 and we get a call from the hospital note we’re about 15 minutes from.  Sorry but hes not produced enough Stem Cells they say, so can you drive back to collect more injections and then come back in for 8:30am tomorrow so we can harvest some more. Needless to say we’re exhausted by this point anyway and I was internally pissed off :0).  So we decided to drive home, let Suzie Pup out and had a cuppa before driving back.

Getting back to the hospital was a pain, lots of people around out on the lash ( drinkie poo resulting in drunkness) lol, they seem to forget that roads aren’t pavements.  I got annoyed as we got lost and swore alot ( sorry) but told myself to calm down as I didn’t want Paul upset any further.  So finally we get to the hospital up to Ward 44 we go Manchester Royal collect the injections and I said can I use a room so we can do the injections. Pointed to the relatives room, gave Paul his injections and a nurse turns up saying I’m here to give the injections.  I turned around and said I’ve done them didn’t realise they where going to give them .  She said oh did you know how to do it , I was like yep  no issue I’ve been injecting Paul twice daily for the last 7 months with Clexane anyway.

So its now Friday and hes totally exhausted unsurprisingly,  we have a gig on Saturday at Yewstock ( somehow we will get through it) . Back to hospital Tuesday for consent for the transplant and then the actual transplant and full blast chemo/stay in hospital on the 31st of July.

Oh what a week hey.

I’ve also started a fund raiser here for Paul to help with some time away after the transplant to recover and also help with travel expenses to the hospital and back. It would be great if you can share the link and even greater if you could contribute.  Thankyou in advance. https://www.gofundme.com/holiday-for-cancer-sufferer

“A Nickle” – Original Song Lyrics/Poetry by Paul Britton

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A nickel is holding up a dollar.
Making me feel like I can’t carry on.
There’s another rock flying towards my head.
I can’t tell where I gone wrong.
A nickel is holding up a dollar.
Nothing but pain all thru the night.
How can I put up with it forever more.
Sailing or flying try as I might
Br
Yeah yeah, crying and laughing.
Yeah yeah sang the ferryman.
Yeah yeah crying and laughing.
Yeah yeah sang the ferryman.
A nickel is holding up a dollar.
Something tells me it’s up and it’s down.
How can time beckon like lights in the fog.
Working dogs lie in a different town.
A nickel is holding up a dollar.
You lie down with dogs you get up with fleas.
Nothing seems real when I open my eyes.
I try to be polite I always say please

 

Multiple Myeloma – SCT – how’s it going for you!

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So Cycle 8 of the twice weekly intensive Chemotherapy is now complete for hubster.   So glad this is his last cycle hes so fed up and needs a break.  Problem is that on the 3rd of July he starts the prep and consent for the Stem Cell Transplant doh!.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Unfortunately Paul’s still having his twice daily Clexane injections ( anti-coagulant replacing his Warfarin for the moment) which are leaving unbelievable bruises  – look at this devil.

 

 

 

 

 

3rd July 2018
So rolling forward to the 3rd of July, we met with the Hematologist at Manchester Royal , a really charming and funny chap.  The day was basically taking a measure of Pauls weight, yet more bloods, a run through of the forms, sign your life away and what happens during Stem Cell.  All very straight forward. The first part of the Stem Cell Transplant process is basically checking that you are fit enough. So you’ll have a series of tests to check before proceeding with the SCT and onto the next stage which is the harvesting stage.

https://www.nhs.uk/conditions/stem-cell-transplant/what-happens/#tests

1 – 01/07 – CT Scan

2 – 10/07 – Lung Function Test

3 – 12/07 – Bone Marrow Test

4 – ECG Test

5 – Harvesting prep – 13/07  – GCSF Injections ( note you need to keep them cool in the fridge) are to be given to hubby ( Paul) into his soft skin to encourage/stimulate the stem cells to go into his blood stream from his bone marrow).  So that’s me playing nursey again  – “Sorry Paul , Sharp scratch lol”

https://www.macmillan.org.uk/information-and-support/treating/supportive-and-other-treatments/supportive-therapies/g-csf.html

I wonder if they picked Friday the 13th deliberately?

6 – 16/07 – Bloods and consultation review

7 – 17/07 – 18/07 – Harvesting the Stem Cells at Manchester Royal

8 – Conditioning ( basically an intensive blast of chemo  – say goodbye to your hair – sorry)

9 – Stem Cell transplant and a few weeks stay in hospital.

 

Lung Function Test – July 10th 2018

This was a strange test , seems they are testing to see how strong you are by making you breath into a bag that’s attached to a machine. Paul had to blow into the blue pipe that has the bag attached to it , short and long spurts of pushing air out of your lungs. The machine then very cleverly works out your lung function capacity.

 

Its Bone Marrow test day – July 12th 2018
Well its been a funny old day today . Hubby Paul my lovely unlucky chappie is the one with the Multiple Myeloma ( Cancer) , he had his bone marrow test today in prep for his Stem Cell transplant. He’s having the cell extraction next Tuesday and Wednesday at Manchester Royal. They tried to get his bone marrow via his hip to extra the bone marrow cells but couldn’t do , it just wouldn’t go in (he must have bones as solid as granite eh?) , so the doc went in via his chest. So here’s what they do they swab the area of where they are going to extract the bone marrow.  In hubbies case his chest, then they inject a local anesthetic.  Then lastly certainly from what I saw they use what looks like a tube with a needle on the end but its a different type of needle to the usual injection ones. They remove a sample of bone marrow cells or an area of bone marrow in one piece. Here’s a link to the procedure if you want to see the graphic details https://www.cancerresearchuk.org/about-cancer/cancer-in-general/tests/bone-marrow-test.

I stayed in the room during the procedure, moral support and all that. Hubby screamed, I’ve never heard him scream before it wasn’t good. I brought him home about 10:30am from hospital and hes been in bed asleep since. Only waking for lunch and drinks. Feeling very sad, lonely and pretty useless today as theres not much I can do for him apart from food, drinks and checking on him.

Pups on guard, well looking at her maybe shes guarding the fan as its super warm who knows.

 

 

 

So thats it, next week we have the pleasure of attending hospital three days in one week and the harvesting starts.  Oh joy bring on the Harvest Festival. !!!!!!

Body Confidence – Are you Curvy or just Fat?

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Seems everybody is jumping on the band wagon with regards this one so thought I’d add my two peneth.

I’m one of those people who always ( always) covers up, I’m not a great one to show their legs or let alone wear a bikini in public.  But then that’s just me I guess, you’re not going to change my mindset because its trendy to show all your lumps and bumps and call yourself curvy when in fact you are fat. I’m now too old and I wont change I promise you lol!.

Whoops! I said the fat word, another thing that people find offensive, I mean why are you so offended I don’t get it?.  If you are over your standard weight for your height and frame then you are fat right?.  Why some ladies call themselves curvy, I do not know , embrace you’re fat ,if you are happy with it. Wear what you want to and don’t give a flip about what people think ( its Mind over matter literally). Listen, don’t think that you have to call yourselves “curvy” because everybody tells you , you should!.

 

 

There are a few prominent bloggers out there that are championing the word Fat and taking it back and owning it , I’m sure you my lovely readers can do the same.

 

 

I’m happy in my skin, yes I am, ( honest)  but, and yes there is a but, I am still conscious of the tummy roll area and the double chin it doesn’t suit me and I am very very vain. I do need to continue to loose weight and get healthier as I am type 2 Diabetic and for me that’s the right decision. Some people reacted to my losing weight in the past in different ways, ie abandonment, disloyal etc. I got the vibe that some people ( weird I know) felt I was sort of abandoning the plus community, nope not guilty. All I’m doing is ensuring that I’m still around long enough to enjoy my life and live out those dreams.  ie Mine are going to Memphis making it big and having a number 1 in the charts with my band Skyeladder

So anyway back to the body confidence thing – here is a picture of myself in a swimsuit, also first time in Malta September 2017 as well after holidaying in the UK for years due to my hubby being super ill.

I didn’t make it to a bikini , but then again I just didn’t want to !.

The cossie I have on is a  Beth Ditto Swimsuit , this is back from when Evans where brave,  in that they had exciting designers such as Beth pull together capsule collections for them. I think I look pretty good what do you think.?

Here’s one of me in shorts showing my legs ( Shock/Horror, this is rare though.) 

I also know its a bit corny but I recorded this ditti around body confidence a few years ago.  Have a listen and if you want get it shared around so more people can hear me sing :0) and push my music I’m in a band called Skyeladder www.skyeladder.net :0 )

Enjoy the blog and speak to you all soon ………..

#bodyconfidence #doenstmatterwhatyourshapeis #skyeladder #psblogger

 

Multiple Myeloma – Whats that Paul?

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10/06 – So I’ve just read whilst searching around that for Manchester Royal if you are having Stem Cell visiting hours seem some what restricted. Hope I’m wrong Ward 44 shows visiting as  Monday, Wednesday, Friday and Sunday 2 – 8pm ( I assume no visiting Tuesday and Saturday) and Thursday is 3 – 8pm eeeek. Not sure how we are going to cope with that one as we’re always together when we’re apart its really horrible , we feel disjointed, lonely and sad as if one of us has died its really weird. But I guess we’ll have to wait and see what the consultant says in July.  ( Quick update 11/06 – Well phew a lovely lady on the UK Myeloma Support Group on FB advised if hubby is in isolation that I can probably visit when ever I need to – thankyou x )

https://www.cmft.nhs.uk/media/844460/ward%2044%20and%20haematology%20day%20unit.pdf

Been out in the garden today as its been so gorgeous, putting in a few new plants doing the raised beds and then we had a lovely barbi.  Still makes me giggle a little when Paul just falls a sleep mid flow.  I know I shouldn’t laugh but he does fall asleep in the funniest places, bless him. Hes so tired these days and sleeps at ever opportunity but I guess thats the intensive chemo and all the pills hes having to take (You can hear him from a mile off I call him shake , rattle and roll lol), I hope having the SCT changes that for him and he can do more of what he wants to do.

We’re now safely inside, managed to get everything in and the table/chairs and barbi covered up literally seconds before the heavens opened.  Goodness did it rain, but the gardens a lot happier. Made Paul a cuppa and hes currently  downstairs watching F1 he loves motor racing.  I got totally soaked oh well, one totally wet babe lol.

Check out my garden pics here I grow my own veg/fruit/herbs, first started in 2016 when Paul first got bowel cancer with the aim to making him healthier by growing my own vegetables. I think the fresh stuff helps keep him as healthy as possible , well I think it does :0) .

https://www.pinterest.co.uk/janiesingermode/my-home-allotment/

At least there’s no hospital tomorrow, as its a week three so no chemo.  I love the staff at Oldham Hospital Ward F11 Day Unit but blimey its super boring just sat there waiting.  Paul’s always last , I don’t know why and he gets so fed up and bored. Still got tablets and his 2nd injection today of Clexane to do ,but overall its not been that bad a day really.  Paul’s feeling okay just tired and a bit head achy.  I have the day off work tomorrow so going to go out for the day depending on how Pauls feeling.

But the good news is , is that I have a surprise for him that I hope hes going to love :0) , I might tell him tomorrow, mmm might do that as he needs cheering up.

To be continued…………….

 

Multiple Myeloma and my Paul

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Hey all, Lady Jane ( Janie B here)  – so as some of you may or may-not know , my hubby and soulmate Paul  was diagnosed with Multiple Myeloma December 2017.

 

Paul’s already had 7 cycles of intensive chemo which is twice weekly and is due due to start cycle 8 next week and is being treated at Oldham Royal Hospital.  I just wanted to say BTW the staff on Ward F11 are amazing. Special mention to Sue on reception who has an amazing memory,  knows every-bodies name and is super kind.

Medication wise Pauls on Velcade ( Bortezomib) twice a week. Plus stacks of other tablets and morphine for an existing chronic pain condition he had before the Multiple Myeloma that effects his right side and mobility. Plus for good measure he also has twice daily Clexane injections.  He was on Warfarin as a result of  having three Pulmonary embolisms but it was effecting his treatment and blood levels.  Plus, as if that wasn’t enough he also had a Bowel Cancer operation in 2016.

 

 

 

 

So what is Multiple Myeloma?  – well you can catch a definition here  https://www.nhs.uk/conditions/multiple-myeloma/  but its basically un-cureable and is a cancer of the bone marrow. It’s called Multiple Myeloma as the cancer often affects several areas of the body, such as the spine, skull, pelvis and ribs.

Theres also lots of information here – https://www.myeloma.org.uk/ and https://www.facebook.com/myelomauk/?rc=p ( Tel – 0800 980 3332.)

After the official diagnosis we wondered how long Paul had left as there are so many conflicting stories out there , from what I read up to 44 months most live longer and thats just the average.  If you are younger ( Thumbs up to Paul) then you have a better chance of surviving longer and apparently the Stem Cell Transplant helps to lengthen this survival time and some survivors have been around for years.  So we have decided to take whats out there with a pinch of salt and just ignore, try not to worry ( although its hard and I still cry far too much)  and get on to ensure that Paul is in as good a state of health as is possible.

So far with the chemo hes been lucky re his side effects,  having just a few teary eyes ( emotion), dizziness and also extreme fatigue which has effected him completing day to day activities ie sorting out a bag of wires , walking etc and is sleeping most of the day ( so I’m very lonely which I feel very selfish about thinking of myself) and his concentration isn’t great. I must admit when he was first told he may have it and then when it was confirmed , we sort of shut down, closed the curtains and cried a lot ( and when I mean a lot, it was lots and lots and lots) . But we moved through the shock emotion very quickly into fighting and pissed off mode.

 

 

Paul is a lovely chap 6:3 tall , lovely kind eyes with a twinge of naughtiness in them , a daft sense of humour and the thickest head of hair which causes hair envy with our Hairdresser lol.  Paul’s a very musical chap , he loves playing guitar, writing songs and poetry and is part of my band Skyeladder www.skyeladder.net

https://www.facebook.com/skyeladdermusic/

He’s the best, kindest person, super laid back chilled and most solid person I know and I still struggle with understanding why hes going through Cancer again.

Seems God or somebody feels that we need to be challenged constantly and I describe Paul’s illness’s to my friends as small bumps in the road or little project challenges!.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

You know though ,  even after all of this illness and stress in our lives we are both still very positive.  Mentally we try to see ahead and plan little trips and have future plans to push our music and visit places/try things that we’ve talked about.  We even have an EP called “Life is for Living” that we are recording/mixing currently that will be out this year.  Check out our funding project here https://rocketfuelhq.com/skyeladder   Paul also practices meditation as he says it helps him to not only deal with the pain the CRPS and Cancer causes but also helps him to manage his illness and mental health.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Paul’s treatment so the consultant says, is going well and I guess we have to be thankful in that we still have each other and his numbers are going in the correct direction after 7 cycles of Chemo his Paraprotein‘s are currently 21 previously 51 ( Thank Goodness).

 

He has his second appointment with Manchester Royal first week in July to start the prep for Stem Cell Transplant and I must admit I’m super worried. Having a SCT is a really big deal , I know the consultant had to say it ,but he warned us that there is a small chance of Paul dying during this procedure ! and I must admit though its a really small chance, its very scary and  its been preying on my mind ever since.

 

Lastly a quote from Paul that had me in tears. ” The worst part of this from a selfish point of view is not being able to do as much as I did and not being able to pick up the guitar as much as I did.  The biggest thing that really frustrates the life out of me and annoys me is how it effects you Janie.  I hate the fact that you feel lonely and that you have to do more it makes me feel so angry. I don’t care about the Myeloma, its  how it effects you Janie. There is nothing I can do about it apart from fight and keep on keeping on .”

More soon……….